My Mother

Alhamdulillah, I still have some time to spent here despite having a tiring day.

I was thinking about my mother. I called her mama. Mama came to visit me this evening because she wants to take my lappy to install a software. She came here and brought a very delicious macaroni for me. I was touched and I felt like I want to cry. She injured her finger with a knife which had to be stitched and yet, she still have the effort to cook for me even though it was terribly painful for her to do the cook. I could say that it was the most delicious meal I ever ate since I was here. 

I was about to ask a little expenditure but as I think that I was just adding the burden for them (my parents), then let me try to survive as they had survived and struggled for me. I want to let them know how much I would appreciate and love them for every single sacrifice they had done for me. 

Maybe they would say that they really love and appreciate their moms because they are far from their family. As for me, wherever I go, I always pray that I will never ever forget mama and papa. Open your arms and try to reach the farthest of the east and west, and that's how much I love mama and papa.

This memory is just a part of their sacrifices for me. It's just that I could never thank you enough from this day. 

Mama, papa, I promised that I will struggle to reach my goal...for you. InsyaAllah...

Life for Today

As I promised, I would note my life here. If possible, almost everyday, insyaAllah..

I had a BEL 260 this morning and given a task to deliver a speech on how to improve my university. This was the best part. I draft a different sentences in the script but deliver a different speech when I come in front. This is really funny as I struggled so hard to stick to the notes I draft. The notes is in my lecturer's hand, Madam Raza. She looked stunned when she hear I'm speaking things that differ from the text in her hand. She was just smiling and try not to laugh..hahhaa....even my friend who sit next to me....her face was like.."this is not what you wrote"..

Okay, i know this is my stage freight since I was a debater. That's why there's no point for me to create a nice and fancy words to be my text as it is pointless. hahahaa...my lecturer would ask each of us to write comments on a piece of paper for our friends presentation. So, I get my comments and it's quite positive but as for myself, I am still must improve a lot...especially my eye contacts. This is my weak point!!! How to overcome it??? Majority of my friends said so..Hmm..gotta do something about that, definitely...so, thanks to my friends for sincere comments and I really appreciate that...

Last night, I'm making notes for my law subjects after preparing my speech. It was really....or should I say super complicated??!! Why you asked??!! I have to be creative in making my notes because not sometimes, but most of the times.., the law facts is quite complicated to understand as I'm not quite familiar yet with the 'law' language. Most of the time, I'm not really understand about what am I writing about my notes of law.....

Need some advice here...huhu..

Move on to the next chapter, when I was blogging here.., my friends in facebook just popped out in my chatbox. He, (yes my friend is a he) asked did I study in UiTM Kedah? So I said yes and why? It's pretty funny that he claimed that he also was here and taking the same foundation with me but we never met each other!! How cool was that?? hahahaa....I was surprised and so was he! It's been for almost 3 weeks but yet, we never jumped over each other in could I say that this university is not so big..! This is really awkward or I should tell myself that I was too 'busy' that I couldn't even know the presence of my ex-PRIMARY schoolmate...It never crossed my mind that, when I come here, I would meet again with my ex-primary schoolmate..

What a small world!!!
I always thought it is just a cliche that an old friends meet again and all that drama..haha..
But I'm not making drama with him okay..!!

My last lecture class for today.....

In BEL 313 just now drives me crazy thinking about the arguments, disagreement and all the description as well as the explanation.  (nak pecah kepala otak teman memikirnyer..)

Well, this is the entry of the day today. Gotta to figure out few things out...
InsyaAllah.., I will be given some spare times to spent here.

My New Journey of Life

Assalamualaikum..

It's been for a month I didn't blog in here. There's a lot of stories that's happening even within a month. First and foremost, (waaa..aku dah speaking..) I got an offer to further my study at UiTM Kedah which is....just a stone's throw away from my house..haahaha..

I will be a foundation in law student for a year before straight to degree. It's quite obvious that my major has turned 360 degree upside down because this is not what I learnt for the past two years which is the engineering field. But, this is my choice. This is the real me. No hypocracy here..I want to be a legal advisor in Islamic banking, insyaAllah...

Next chapter, I kind of frustrating as UiTM is not my first choice to study. I'm targeting UIA as I want to further in syariah. But then, my mama consoled me that there is always a hikmah. And, so here I am in UiTM Kedah as a law student. It is a cliche' that when we go to a new place, we will meet new friends and so it does to me. They're all come from a solid background in education and very excellent. It boosts me to excel myself just like them. For example, improving my English..(tapi ada je ayat yang beretrabur..huhu). 

I get to know guys, most of them, from Perak. The girls majority from Kelantan. It gives me a big question mark??? Is Kelantan lacked of lawyer?? There's just so many of them. More than half of my class!!! The best part is I have the opportunity which is very insane to hear that is..., I finally meet my neighbor just in front of my house. I've been staying there for years and I never met him until I stepped my foot into this university..hahaaa..

My goal now is to get good CGPA so that I could receive another scholarship for my degree insyaAllah.., as I received now. Furthermore, I want to help my parents to ease the burden in financial. I want to help my race. I am thankful because my heart is finally opened to fight justice for my race, religion and my country. Being as a law student, taught me a lot of things about laws and justice and also morality.

Therefore, I promised myself to get my goal strike to the end..

I won't disappoint my mama and papa especially. 

I think that's all about my expression this time. 

More to come after this probably, as I planned to entry every moment in my life being as a UiTM student. InsyaAllah...

Don't Say A Word....

It's been nearly a month since I didn't blog in here. As always, not that I didn't have any ideas, it's just the time that matters. About my life currently, nothing extraordinary (not that I was dreaming about being a superstar). I'm still working and keep on working until any university invited me to pursue my study. Hopefully.....

I am hoping that I could continue in law. I know,.... a technical school student who is taking engineering is going for law??!! Don't say a word. I found my passion in it. I was a former debater for my school and have been to the national in debate. I have fall in love with this world. I'm so sorry that I may have disappointed other people who wanted to see me be as an engineer but I just can't pretend myself liking something that I don't like ! I always become someone else to make myself to like things that I'm not keen of. But, despite I don't like engineering for two years, doesn't mean I'm ruining myself for two years. I've learnt a lot of new knowledge. So, thank you to engineering world for giving me chances to be part of your family just for two years. There's a lot of values that engineering has taught me and most importantly, the great patience to face all the adventures in exploring the world and to become a better person.

But, I will never ever buried my dream to be a pilot someday. Perhaps after I have a degree in law. InsyaAllah..

Till, this day I always thankful to Allah for always giving me the bless. I may not be the best, but everything seems simple in this life and I'm enjoying this moderate life. Everything looks fine and so far, after the incident last year (which I don't want to share right now) I'm good. Alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah.

So, I'm gonna zip my mouth if anyone asked me about it. Because...., life is short. And I just want to be myself as long as I have given a chance to live. ( I got this word from my teacher. She used to be my Bahasa Melayu teacher also the advisor of the School Prefects Body). And, I guess..she was right and make me realized about this life.

The Result

Not much that I want to say in this blog. Just a few things to be updated in life recently. I've just got my driving license.Well, it reduces the pressure since I was so scared to deal with the JPJ. Hihihi... The days which will decide my future are numbered...The SPM result, of course. I was so scared that I would failed even though I know that I've gave my best shot. I was afraid to see the tears of disappoinment in my parents eyes. I want them to cry with joy seeing me with the glorious victory. I may not be the best but it is enough for me to give them  what they want. To see me entering the university. That is their dream and my dream is only to see them happy. I won't care what will happen to me but the only thing that I know is that my parents would always be happy. Being the eldest in the family isn't that easy, huh?? 

I know that all the Malaysian has been well mindset that the SPM is the future. (That's including me). If you're doomed in your exam, you seems to get no brighter future. You won't get something easily. Some people may agreed but others don't. The SPM isn't everything in life at all. For me, it was just an exam to test the IQ of the students whether they are eligible to enter the tertiary education or not. And to select students to go for specific courses at the higher institution according to their achievement. So, if you failed, what's the big deal?? You still can survive in life except that your road won't be as easy as others who are well performed in SPM. That's just it. 

I've read about a lot of people who don't have any qualified education to be a chairman or a bigshot in prestigious organization. They do admit that they regretted that they have failed in their exams. But, they take it as a challenge to build their strengths back and put them on top. That is the spirit. 

I'm not trying to bring the message something like "alaa, aku fail SPM. tak pe, nak buat macam mana kan?" in my post this time. I was trying to say that in life, we shouldn't give up easily. Have faith in Allah. The Almighty knows everything that He has destined for us. We have strived very hard for two years. Now, it's time to have faith in Him. Pray to Him with sincerity. InsyaAllah, we will suceeded not just in our exams but in our life. 

Percaya kepada qada' dan qadar - rukun Iman keenam.

Semoga semua calon SPM 2010 mendapat kejayaan yang terbaik pada 23 MAC 2011 ini. InsyaAllah....

Buah Kesabaran Itu Manis Sekali

Not much that I want to say in this post. It's been a quite a long time since my last post. I've gone through a lot of things since I've finished the last SPM exam paper. I try to keep in touch back with my Ibrahim's friends through Facebook. So far, it went well. Despite that all of us have been very busy in our own world, we still manage to catch up each other. I also try (very hard) to follow up my friends in Terengganu but I doubt that I'm still one of them. A bad memories indeed in Terengganu. I wish I could wipe off all the memories back in Terengganu because I know, once I stepped out the exam hall, I would leave all the sad memories back there. Nothing left for me to flashback the hatred I've received as a foreign student in that school. Nothing more.......

Of course we do believe the pepatah Melayu said dalam setandan pisang, tidak semuanya busuk. I've gone through the hardship for two years with my loyal friends, best companions who are always right beside me whenever I faced the hatred of others. Nor Ayati Aziz. Ayati.., a nice name just like its owner. I wish I could post her picture in here but unfortunately I don't actually have her photos. Her beautiful smile and her spirit to cheer me up will always be in my mind. 

Atie, I miss you dear. Where are you? Why did't you return my calls and SMSes? After what we all have gone through together as a roommate and classmate, you are my best friend back in Terengganu. All the memories with you is still with me. I didn't left it when I stepped out from the hall. But, in the end, how could you lie to me?!

(Sighing)

I took sometime to be alone with myself to reflect back my life when I was a student at SM Teknik Terengganu. All I could see was a hardship and the hatred I received. And yet, I managed to survive two years there. I learn that patience is the ultimate victory for all the challenges whenever I faced them. I've got to say thank you to the people who hated me for teaching me patience. It's undeniable that your hatred has made me to become a strong person to survive in this hipocratic world. I feel like I am a different person who is more calm for another adventures in my life. 

Also, thanks for my teachers who never gives up educating me with all the values of life. I will never forget for all the things you have done to me. 

P/S: Finally, buah kesabaran itu manis sekali. Syukur Ya Allah...Terima kasih kerana memberikan ujian itu kerana hamba kini insaf dan lebih tabah menghadapi dugaan yang Engkau berikan.

Dunia Hari Ini

Lama rasenyer x post kat blog ni..(hmm mmg lama pun). Alasan standard, sibuk dan x de idea..hehehe

Biasa la tu...., banyak benda sebenarnyer nk cerita dlm blog nie.., susah2 x de org nk dgr cerita, haa laptop ni jd mangsa aku nk taip cerita dlm blog ni..heehhe..

Ni cerita masuk skop diri sendiri dulu. Alaa...macam soalan karangan SPM tuu...,soalan ade skop2 plak. Hmm..dah alang2 tesebut pasal SPM ni, terus bukak cerita pasal SPM. Semakin berdebar menanti hari nk ambik result..sape x takut SPM mak oii....Huish, ibarat kata2 jiwang karat, tido x lena, mandi x basah, mkn x de selera. Hari ni baca paper, result STPM bakal kluar 21 hb ni. That means, kebiasaannyer laa result SPM ni kluar 2-3 hari lps STPM kluar..Hmmm...Redha aje laa. Tapi kan, aku ni, dlm keresahan nk ambik result, sempat lagi enjoy sakan ngan colleagues pegi bercuti. Alaa..gaya ape je cakap mcm jauh pegi bercutinyer,..heehe.. pdhal, pegi Penang aje. Hihihii....

Dari Sungai Petani nk gi Penang about half n hour je, tapi hangout ngan member ni x sama ngan bjalan bersama family. Macam2 tempat pegi. Plan asal nk tengok wayang, tapi disebabkan x de movie yg menarik (actually, ade je citer best tapi disebabkan pegi bjalan tgh bulan, of coz laa duit pun kering,so sumer citer trus jd x sedap) maka, kitorang pun tengok laa tayangan movie percuma kat kedai Sony yang jual TV tuu..Hhahaa..

I learn something, bile tgh2 bulan dan anda tgh sesak duit, tempat yg perlu dielakkan ialah shopping complex! Especially shopaholic.(hehhe..can't help it tersebut pasal shopaholic coz I'm a fan of those novels.hihhi)

So, kitorang pun pegi laa..jln2 pusing pulau belah Batu Feringhi tu...Abang Firdaus yg jadi pak supir kitorang, Hheehehee..

Dari belakang, Kak Lia,Kak Ida, Me, Abang Zack, Abang Firdaus.
We all ade kat Jeti Teluk Mahang.
Smile everyone....:)

Ni gambar atas Penang Bridge...
Oh my Gosh..,masa berdiri kat tepi tuu, dah rase gayat dah bile tengok laut btul2 kat bawah...

Tgh enak pekena laksa Penang tepi pantai...
View pantai x nampak la plak..
Bile dh menghadap mknan tuu, Tsunami pun dh x nampak..

Me
Kat Padang Kota.
Hajat di hati nk mkn pasembur, apakan daya, lps ni dh plan nk sambar Prosperity Mc D.
Kalau santap jugak pasembur, alamat mcm ular sawa kekenyangan la kitorang nanti

Mkn Prosperity Burger sorang satu sambil layan ESPN yg ditayangkn kat McD tu..

Abang Zack n Abang Firdaus
My colleagues
Sorang keje dlm satu office. Lagi sorang keje kat office sebelah.
Mcm2...

Now, nak masuk skop keluarga dan masyarakat plak.

Mmg btul2 ikut format soalan SPM laa..

Sebenarnyer..., aku heran laa ngan sorang insan ni. Nama dia (bkn nama sebenar) Minah. Dia ni hidup menumpang kat rumah sewa org. Dia dgn housemate dia langsung x bertegur sapa, even bilik dkt sekangkang kera je. In fact, housemate die tu punyer laa baik hati tlg hantar die pegi keje hari2. Kan dh jimat tambang. Housemate die x berkira pun duit minyak ke, ape ke, barang dapur pun diorang siap bahagi2 kabinet lg. Bhgn aku, aku punyer, bhgn kau, kau punyer. Yg paling x tahan skali, ade ke patut dia nk minta tlg housemate die yg baik hati tu  pegi beli mkn mlm since housemate die nk kluar hangout kat gerai mamak.Dia pun nk kirim jugak.....Ada ke patut, dia hantar SMS je kat housemate dia dlm bilik minta bli mknan?! Padahal, apa salahnyer, julur aje la muka tu kat pintu bilik tu panggil tlg blikan mknan?? Luar alam btul...

Gaya cerita ni mmg la dah masuk tahap bz body mcm minah kepoh. Tapi, cume nk ckp yg wujud jugak spesies manusia yg mcm tu. Mintak2 laa aku x kn dpat housemate mcm tu..

Kita ni kan hidup bermasyarakat, bkn kite sorang aje kat dlm dunia ni..nk2 lg hidup menumpang. Pandai2 laa bwk diri tu...Hai, mcm2 hal skrg ni.

Skop nasional plak.Hehehee...

Apa la nk jadi ngan politik kat Malaysia, tanah tumpah darahku ni?? Nk kata maju.., boleh laa..kire org kata ade langkah laa. Tapi, mentaliti tu still ada segelintir masyarakat yg kita bleh bg gred C lagi. We have become a hilarious laughing stock in the world right now. Buat maluu jee..

Apsal laa diorang ni sibuk2 sgt pasal politik?? Kalau boleh memajukan rakyat dan negara, x pe la jugak. Ini, penuh dgn korupsi dan cerita2 pasal tokoh2 politik yg memualkan lg menjengkelkan. I'm sorry to use that word, but it seems that kite punyer leaders nowadays ni mcm dah x de keje lain dah nk buat. Keje nyer nk dengki...aje. X paham aku. Mmg laa everyone understood kalau kite beat other parties, kite bleh dpt nama, kemasyhuran, duit, n pengaruh sendiri. Tapi, biarlah dgn cara yg btul, x menyakitkan hati org. Ini x, sikit2 nk dengki, nk fitnah laa.., kalau tuduhan tu berasas x ape la jugak. Ini, mcm badut sarkas buat lawak aje..Buang duit, masa dan tenaga...

lagi satu nk tambah, bleh x kalau isu politik yg ntahapeape tu, x melibatkan soal Islam. Islam tu terlalu suci utk dijadikan satu modal bg org2 mcm diorang yg konon2nyer mengaku perjuangan politik jugak menegakkan Islam. Piiiiiirraahh...boleh blah laa.. Amede laa yg diorang merepek wal merapu tu??!

Buat laa ape yg korang suke, besides, kubur masing2 jaga. Kalau org dah bsar kepala tu, x de nye de nk dgr ckp org. Cakap die aje la yg btul.. Cuma diharapkan, ape yg korang buat ni x menimbulkan kemarahan dari org awam. Kang, x pasal2 ade yg ikut jejak kisah konflik Hosni Mubarak tu. Sabar rakyat pun ada batas jugak. Cukup2 la tu nk merosakkan minda org awam dgn game politik yg x berkesudahan tu. Dah penat dan naik muak dah nk layan!

Hmm..tadi ade sebut pasal Hosni tu kan?

Well, intro utk isu Antarabangsa plak.

Baru ni ade tengok History Channel, Marcos: The Downfall of a Dictator.

Bile tengok kisah Marcos ni kan, x ubah mcm kes Hosni Mubarak skrg ni. 

Pemerintahan diktator yg berakhir dgn kebangkitan rakyat. Entah laa..x tau mcm mana nk komen. Yg jelas, pengajaran yg cukup difahami semua org, kite ni bile ada amanah, tanggungjawab, kna lah jlnkan sebaik mungkin. Mmg btul kite x bleh nk puaskan hati sumer org, tapi at least kite cube yg terbaik. Org dah beri kepercayaan pada kita, jgn la kite mungkir janji. Masa nk jadi presiden dulu, ia2 jer angkat sumpah nk berbakti la, ape la, n mcm2 lg kata2 manis, janji seorang pemimpin berwibawa la konon2nyer.....tapi, itu la manusia bile dh anggap diri tu terlampau berkuasa, terus lupa diri. 

Kan skrg, tengok? Apa dah jadi?? Nk salahkan siapa skrg??

Enough2 laa pasal hal org. Cukup2 laa tu aku nk hamburkan ape yg aku rase pada dunia sekarang ni.

For the final part, aku nk ckp pasal sastera plak. Ni pun sbb nk penuhkan kuota format mcm dlm soalan SPM tadi aje..hahaaaha(aku ni dah merapu, meraban dah la ni) 

Currently, aku dlm proses nk mengabiskn novel karya Siti Rosmizah. Ni pun borrow yg mama punyer, since gaji bln ni x de bajet nk ble novel baru. Hajat di hati ni nk laa beli novel English yg baru,tapi kna tungu fulus dulu laa...(one way I'm improving my English Language actually). Thanks to my English teacher who had encourage me to read, and credits to my parents who are also never stop motivating me to improve myself speaking in this International language.

Cukup2 la tu stakat ni. Ade benda lg nk ckp, nanti kita onl9 lain hari. skrg, nk perabis novel dulu.

Sekian..