Don't Say A Word....

It's been nearly a month since I didn't blog in here. As always, not that I didn't have any ideas, it's just the time that matters. About my life currently, nothing extraordinary (not that I was dreaming about being a superstar). I'm still working and keep on working until any university invited me to pursue my study. Hopefully.....

I am hoping that I could continue in law. I know,.... a technical school student who is taking engineering is going for law??!! Don't say a word. I found my passion in it. I was a former debater for my school and have been to the national in debate. I have fall in love with this world. I'm so sorry that I may have disappointed other people who wanted to see me be as an engineer but I just can't pretend myself liking something that I don't like ! I always become someone else to make myself to like things that I'm not keen of. But, despite I don't like engineering for two years, doesn't mean I'm ruining myself for two years. I've learnt a lot of new knowledge. So, thank you to engineering world for giving me chances to be part of your family just for two years. There's a lot of values that engineering has taught me and most importantly, the great patience to face all the adventures in exploring the world and to become a better person.

But, I will never ever buried my dream to be a pilot someday. Perhaps after I have a degree in law. InsyaAllah..

Till, this day I always thankful to Allah for always giving me the bless. I may not be the best, but everything seems simple in this life and I'm enjoying this moderate life. Everything looks fine and so far, after the incident last year (which I don't want to share right now) I'm good. Alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah.

So, I'm gonna zip my mouth if anyone asked me about it. Because...., life is short. And I just want to be myself as long as I have given a chance to live. ( I got this word from my teacher. She used to be my Bahasa Melayu teacher also the advisor of the School Prefects Body). And, I guess..she was right and make me realized about this life.

The Result

Not much that I want to say in this blog. Just a few things to be updated in life recently. I've just got my driving license.Well, it reduces the pressure since I was so scared to deal with the JPJ. Hihihi... The days which will decide my future are numbered...The SPM result, of course. I was so scared that I would failed even though I know that I've gave my best shot. I was afraid to see the tears of disappoinment in my parents eyes. I want them to cry with joy seeing me with the glorious victory. I may not be the best but it is enough for me to give them  what they want. To see me entering the university. That is their dream and my dream is only to see them happy. I won't care what will happen to me but the only thing that I know is that my parents would always be happy. Being the eldest in the family isn't that easy, huh?? 

I know that all the Malaysian has been well mindset that the SPM is the future. (That's including me). If you're doomed in your exam, you seems to get no brighter future. You won't get something easily. Some people may agreed but others don't. The SPM isn't everything in life at all. For me, it was just an exam to test the IQ of the students whether they are eligible to enter the tertiary education or not. And to select students to go for specific courses at the higher institution according to their achievement. So, if you failed, what's the big deal?? You still can survive in life except that your road won't be as easy as others who are well performed in SPM. That's just it. 

I've read about a lot of people who don't have any qualified education to be a chairman or a bigshot in prestigious organization. They do admit that they regretted that they have failed in their exams. But, they take it as a challenge to build their strengths back and put them on top. That is the spirit. 

I'm not trying to bring the message something like "alaa, aku fail SPM. tak pe, nak buat macam mana kan?" in my post this time. I was trying to say that in life, we shouldn't give up easily. Have faith in Allah. The Almighty knows everything that He has destined for us. We have strived very hard for two years. Now, it's time to have faith in Him. Pray to Him with sincerity. InsyaAllah, we will suceeded not just in our exams but in our life. 

Percaya kepada qada' dan qadar - rukun Iman keenam.

Semoga semua calon SPM 2010 mendapat kejayaan yang terbaik pada 23 MAC 2011 ini. InsyaAllah....

Buah Kesabaran Itu Manis Sekali

Not much that I want to say in this post. It's been a quite a long time since my last post. I've gone through a lot of things since I've finished the last SPM exam paper. I try to keep in touch back with my Ibrahim's friends through Facebook. So far, it went well. Despite that all of us have been very busy in our own world, we still manage to catch up each other. I also try (very hard) to follow up my friends in Terengganu but I doubt that I'm still one of them. A bad memories indeed in Terengganu. I wish I could wipe off all the memories back in Terengganu because I know, once I stepped out the exam hall, I would leave all the sad memories back there. Nothing left for me to flashback the hatred I've received as a foreign student in that school. Nothing more.......

Of course we do believe the pepatah Melayu said dalam setandan pisang, tidak semuanya busuk. I've gone through the hardship for two years with my loyal friends, best companions who are always right beside me whenever I faced the hatred of others. Nor Ayati Aziz. Ayati.., a nice name just like its owner. I wish I could post her picture in here but unfortunately I don't actually have her photos. Her beautiful smile and her spirit to cheer me up will always be in my mind. 

Atie, I miss you dear. Where are you? Why did't you return my calls and SMSes? After what we all have gone through together as a roommate and classmate, you are my best friend back in Terengganu. All the memories with you is still with me. I didn't left it when I stepped out from the hall. But, in the end, how could you lie to me?!

(Sighing)

I took sometime to be alone with myself to reflect back my life when I was a student at SM Teknik Terengganu. All I could see was a hardship and the hatred I received. And yet, I managed to survive two years there. I learn that patience is the ultimate victory for all the challenges whenever I faced them. I've got to say thank you to the people who hated me for teaching me patience. It's undeniable that your hatred has made me to become a strong person to survive in this hipocratic world. I feel like I am a different person who is more calm for another adventures in my life. 

Also, thanks for my teachers who never gives up educating me with all the values of life. I will never forget for all the things you have done to me. 

P/S: Finally, buah kesabaran itu manis sekali. Syukur Ya Allah...Terima kasih kerana memberikan ujian itu kerana hamba kini insaf dan lebih tabah menghadapi dugaan yang Engkau berikan.

Dunia Hari Ini

Lama rasenyer x post kat blog ni..(hmm mmg lama pun). Alasan standard, sibuk dan x de idea..hehehe

Biasa la tu...., banyak benda sebenarnyer nk cerita dlm blog nie.., susah2 x de org nk dgr cerita, haa laptop ni jd mangsa aku nk taip cerita dlm blog ni..heehhe..

Ni cerita masuk skop diri sendiri dulu. Alaa...macam soalan karangan SPM tuu...,soalan ade skop2 plak. Hmm..dah alang2 tesebut pasal SPM ni, terus bukak cerita pasal SPM. Semakin berdebar menanti hari nk ambik result..sape x takut SPM mak oii....Huish, ibarat kata2 jiwang karat, tido x lena, mandi x basah, mkn x de selera. Hari ni baca paper, result STPM bakal kluar 21 hb ni. That means, kebiasaannyer laa result SPM ni kluar 2-3 hari lps STPM kluar..Hmmm...Redha aje laa. Tapi kan, aku ni, dlm keresahan nk ambik result, sempat lagi enjoy sakan ngan colleagues pegi bercuti. Alaa..gaya ape je cakap mcm jauh pegi bercutinyer,..heehe.. pdhal, pegi Penang aje. Hihihii....

Dari Sungai Petani nk gi Penang about half n hour je, tapi hangout ngan member ni x sama ngan bjalan bersama family. Macam2 tempat pegi. Plan asal nk tengok wayang, tapi disebabkan x de movie yg menarik (actually, ade je citer best tapi disebabkan pegi bjalan tgh bulan, of coz laa duit pun kering,so sumer citer trus jd x sedap) maka, kitorang pun tengok laa tayangan movie percuma kat kedai Sony yang jual TV tuu..Hhahaa..

I learn something, bile tgh2 bulan dan anda tgh sesak duit, tempat yg perlu dielakkan ialah shopping complex! Especially shopaholic.(hehhe..can't help it tersebut pasal shopaholic coz I'm a fan of those novels.hihhi)

So, kitorang pun pegi laa..jln2 pusing pulau belah Batu Feringhi tu...Abang Firdaus yg jadi pak supir kitorang, Hheehehee..

Dari belakang, Kak Lia,Kak Ida, Me, Abang Zack, Abang Firdaus.
We all ade kat Jeti Teluk Mahang.
Smile everyone....:)

Ni gambar atas Penang Bridge...
Oh my Gosh..,masa berdiri kat tepi tuu, dah rase gayat dah bile tengok laut btul2 kat bawah...

Tgh enak pekena laksa Penang tepi pantai...
View pantai x nampak la plak..
Bile dh menghadap mknan tuu, Tsunami pun dh x nampak..

Me
Kat Padang Kota.
Hajat di hati nk mkn pasembur, apakan daya, lps ni dh plan nk sambar Prosperity Mc D.
Kalau santap jugak pasembur, alamat mcm ular sawa kekenyangan la kitorang nanti

Mkn Prosperity Burger sorang satu sambil layan ESPN yg ditayangkn kat McD tu..

Abang Zack n Abang Firdaus
My colleagues
Sorang keje dlm satu office. Lagi sorang keje kat office sebelah.
Mcm2...

Now, nak masuk skop keluarga dan masyarakat plak.

Mmg btul2 ikut format soalan SPM laa..

Sebenarnyer..., aku heran laa ngan sorang insan ni. Nama dia (bkn nama sebenar) Minah. Dia ni hidup menumpang kat rumah sewa org. Dia dgn housemate dia langsung x bertegur sapa, even bilik dkt sekangkang kera je. In fact, housemate die tu punyer laa baik hati tlg hantar die pegi keje hari2. Kan dh jimat tambang. Housemate die x berkira pun duit minyak ke, ape ke, barang dapur pun diorang siap bahagi2 kabinet lg. Bhgn aku, aku punyer, bhgn kau, kau punyer. Yg paling x tahan skali, ade ke patut dia nk minta tlg housemate die yg baik hati tu  pegi beli mkn mlm since housemate die nk kluar hangout kat gerai mamak.Dia pun nk kirim jugak.....Ada ke patut, dia hantar SMS je kat housemate dia dlm bilik minta bli mknan?! Padahal, apa salahnyer, julur aje la muka tu kat pintu bilik tu panggil tlg blikan mknan?? Luar alam btul...

Gaya cerita ni mmg la dah masuk tahap bz body mcm minah kepoh. Tapi, cume nk ckp yg wujud jugak spesies manusia yg mcm tu. Mintak2 laa aku x kn dpat housemate mcm tu..

Kita ni kan hidup bermasyarakat, bkn kite sorang aje kat dlm dunia ni..nk2 lg hidup menumpang. Pandai2 laa bwk diri tu...Hai, mcm2 hal skrg ni.

Skop nasional plak.Hehehee...

Apa la nk jadi ngan politik kat Malaysia, tanah tumpah darahku ni?? Nk kata maju.., boleh laa..kire org kata ade langkah laa. Tapi, mentaliti tu still ada segelintir masyarakat yg kita bleh bg gred C lagi. We have become a hilarious laughing stock in the world right now. Buat maluu jee..

Apsal laa diorang ni sibuk2 sgt pasal politik?? Kalau boleh memajukan rakyat dan negara, x pe la jugak. Ini, penuh dgn korupsi dan cerita2 pasal tokoh2 politik yg memualkan lg menjengkelkan. I'm sorry to use that word, but it seems that kite punyer leaders nowadays ni mcm dah x de keje lain dah nk buat. Keje nyer nk dengki...aje. X paham aku. Mmg laa everyone understood kalau kite beat other parties, kite bleh dpt nama, kemasyhuran, duit, n pengaruh sendiri. Tapi, biarlah dgn cara yg btul, x menyakitkan hati org. Ini x, sikit2 nk dengki, nk fitnah laa.., kalau tuduhan tu berasas x ape la jugak. Ini, mcm badut sarkas buat lawak aje..Buang duit, masa dan tenaga...

lagi satu nk tambah, bleh x kalau isu politik yg ntahapeape tu, x melibatkan soal Islam. Islam tu terlalu suci utk dijadikan satu modal bg org2 mcm diorang yg konon2nyer mengaku perjuangan politik jugak menegakkan Islam. Piiiiiirraahh...boleh blah laa.. Amede laa yg diorang merepek wal merapu tu??!

Buat laa ape yg korang suke, besides, kubur masing2 jaga. Kalau org dah bsar kepala tu, x de nye de nk dgr ckp org. Cakap die aje la yg btul.. Cuma diharapkan, ape yg korang buat ni x menimbulkan kemarahan dari org awam. Kang, x pasal2 ade yg ikut jejak kisah konflik Hosni Mubarak tu. Sabar rakyat pun ada batas jugak. Cukup2 la tu nk merosakkan minda org awam dgn game politik yg x berkesudahan tu. Dah penat dan naik muak dah nk layan!

Hmm..tadi ade sebut pasal Hosni tu kan?

Well, intro utk isu Antarabangsa plak.

Baru ni ade tengok History Channel, Marcos: The Downfall of a Dictator.

Bile tengok kisah Marcos ni kan, x ubah mcm kes Hosni Mubarak skrg ni. 

Pemerintahan diktator yg berakhir dgn kebangkitan rakyat. Entah laa..x tau mcm mana nk komen. Yg jelas, pengajaran yg cukup difahami semua org, kite ni bile ada amanah, tanggungjawab, kna lah jlnkan sebaik mungkin. Mmg btul kite x bleh nk puaskan hati sumer org, tapi at least kite cube yg terbaik. Org dah beri kepercayaan pada kita, jgn la kite mungkir janji. Masa nk jadi presiden dulu, ia2 jer angkat sumpah nk berbakti la, ape la, n mcm2 lg kata2 manis, janji seorang pemimpin berwibawa la konon2nyer.....tapi, itu la manusia bile dh anggap diri tu terlampau berkuasa, terus lupa diri. 

Kan skrg, tengok? Apa dah jadi?? Nk salahkan siapa skrg??

Enough2 laa pasal hal org. Cukup2 laa tu aku nk hamburkan ape yg aku rase pada dunia sekarang ni.

For the final part, aku nk ckp pasal sastera plak. Ni pun sbb nk penuhkan kuota format mcm dlm soalan SPM tadi aje..hahaaaha(aku ni dah merapu, meraban dah la ni) 

Currently, aku dlm proses nk mengabiskn novel karya Siti Rosmizah. Ni pun borrow yg mama punyer, since gaji bln ni x de bajet nk ble novel baru. Hajat di hati ni nk laa beli novel English yg baru,tapi kna tungu fulus dulu laa...(one way I'm improving my English Language actually). Thanks to my English teacher who had encourage me to read, and credits to my parents who are also never stop motivating me to improve myself speaking in this International language.

Cukup2 la tu stakat ni. Ade benda lg nk ckp, nanti kita onl9 lain hari. skrg, nk perabis novel dulu.

Sekian..

Cerita Ular dengan Tikus

This post, saya nak jadi penglipur lara pulak. 

Saya ada terbaca cerita ni dalam satu majalah. A very interesting one.. 

Cerita ni bermula di sebuah bangsal milik seorang petani yang adelah mengusahakan sebidang tanah padi bagi menyara keluarga. Sedia maklum, bangsal ialah sebuah tempat di mana kita menyimpan semua alatan pertanian, hasil2 tuai dan keadaan di dalam bangsal memang nye x penah bkemas. Petani tu dah tua dan dah x larat dah nk service dia punye bangsal. Situasi ini menyebabkan bangsal buruk tu menjadi kediaman x rasmi makhluk yang datang tanpa diundang. Seekor ular dan jugak seekor tikus...

Kehadiran dua makhluk  yang dah menetap dlm bangsal ni of course la x disedari oleh petani tu kan. Nak dijadikan cerita, pada suatu petang, isteri petani tu pegi la masuk bangsal nk ambik cangkul. Bile dia bukak pintu bangsal tu.., dia menjerit;

                            " Abang...!! Apsal bangsal ni bsepah mcm tongkang pecah?! Mentang2 la sy dah lama x wat spotcek kebersihan bangsal ni , malas ye nk kemas.."

                               Petani tu malas nk btekak dgn bini kesayangan, dia pun jawab la;

                              " Yelaa...nanti abang kemas ye. dah jgn membebel. Nanti naik plak darah awk tu"

Petani yang patuh pd arahan veto isteri die tu pun mula lah mengemas bangsal tu. (Nada suspen) Waktu die tengah angkat kotak yang dihuni oleh seekor ular tuu, ular tu terperanjat dan sbg tindak bls utk membela diri die, ular tu pun patuk la kaki petani tu. To be specific, kat buku lali.... Kebetulan, masa petani tu tunduk bwh nk tengok kaki die kna patuk, tikus pun lalu buat lintas langsung dpn dia. Then, petani tu cakap sorang-sorang, "Laa...tikus pun dah pandai menggigit ye...hei, mcm2 la,"

Sampai seminggu petani tu terus hidup mcm biasa even kaki dia dah kna patuk ngan ular. Sampai la die bukak blk bangsal sbb nk ambik baja,  this time, kaki die mmg btul2 kna gigit ngan tikus coz die secara x sengaja tepijak ekor tikus,so tikus tu melatah dan gigit la kaki petani tu sblm trus lari. To complete the scene, petani tu menjerit kesakitan dan terperanjat sbb this time, ular plak yg buat lintas langsung dpn die nk kjar tikus tu. 

Apalagi, petani tu pun jerit la,

                       " Aaargghh..... kaki aku kna patuk ngan ular...aku dah nk mati....aku dh nk mati...,"

Hahaa....dan petani tu pun kiok kat situ jugak  sbb dia ingat kna patuk ngan ular,walhal digigit tikus.

Now, let's reflect our life back for one minute. Based on the story, lesson yg saya blajar ialah, kite perlu blajar mengawal minda kita. Rewind balik masa petani tu kna patuk ngan ular tapi dia ingat tikus yg gigit dia. He keeps on living as usual. Biasa la, gigit ngan tikus je pun, sapu minyak gamat trus baik. That is mind control. Sama la mcm bile kita mengantuk dlm klas, cikgu ckp minum air byk2 baru la x mengntuk. Tapi, kat rumah mak bancuh susu ngan air kat adik kite dan cakap lps minum susu mesti bdk ni terus tidur. Terbalik kan drpd ape yg cikgu kite ckp? Sebab..., kite dah set mind kite kalau minum air x mengantuk dan kalau adik kite minum susu dia kna tidur. That's how we set our minds. It makes me think again, kalau kite mampu menguasai minda kita, x mustahil kite bleh menakluk dunia suatu hari nanti. Contoh dah byk kat dpn mata, most successful people tdk berfikir dgn nafsu tapi guna akal. 

Bersyukurlah dengan anugerah Allah yg plg berharga iaitu akal fikiran. Kerana, itulah yg menjadikan kite sbg khalifah utk memakmurkan alam ini. Belajarlah untuk mengawal minda. Wallahualam...

                                

Dunia Kerjaku

Akhirnya, setelah begitu lama teringin nak update blog, hari ni baru dapat. Kesibukan bekerja, tolong mama, jadi guru tuisyen tak rasmi adik-adik sememangnya mengekang saya untuk update dan meluah rasa hati dalam My World ni. Banyak cerita sebenrnya kalau nak diikutkan, tapi saya cerita setakat yang saya mampu sahaja untuk malam ni.

Saya nak cerita pasal pengalaman saya kat tempat kerja, Shahzanco Sdn Bhd. Haa.., Syarikat ni merupakan syarikat kontraktor tapi, x de lah segah mcm company UEM Builders tu, but boleh laa. Bila saya check company profile pasal project syarikat ni kira, not bad laa..Eh, ni macam nak promote company la plak yea..hahaha.... 

Heemm...,tugas saya di situ macam-macam kategori ada. Pada asalnya, saya diletakkan di bahagian akaun (oh no!! saya ni ex-student technical school and i'm taking civil engineering course for two years masa ambil SPM dulu. Tapi, dapat bahagian akaun?) Yeah, a new challenge for a new beginners for me. Tapi tak pe, I got my spirit even I have to start all over from a scratch. Think positive la kata orang, ceewah..! Saya kena tolong eksekutif akaun untuk uruskan kewangan syarikat, so semua istilah-istilah akaun semuanya kena tau. Debit credit la, petty cash la, bank-in slip la, belanja angkutan la, lump sum, and so whatever... Mula-mula tu, blur jugak la. It takes time for me to fit in with all these stuff. Selain daripada jadi assistant untuk akaun, saya jugak jadi kerani. haha...kena photocopy, check fax, prepare payment, dan semua yang termasuk dalam bidang tugas kerani. Part ni yang paling best, saya kadang-kadang kena naik taraf untuk jadi setiausaha dan jugak P.A. kepada 4 orang project manager. A real challenge. Nak jaga dan settlekan semua urusan diorang semua tu memang memerlukan kesabaran. Bab ni nanti saya cerita dalam bab bos-bos saya.

Sekarang ni, saya nak masuk bab my colleagues dulu. 

First, Kak Lia. 

Jawatan: Account Executive

Position in the office: betul-betul depan pintu office.

Others:

• Still not married. not sure dah berpunyer ke belum
• suka makan nasi berlauk dan masakan yang pedas-pedas
• suke minum air sejuk tanpa ais
• naik kereta Kancil warna pink
• suka pergi bercuti. time cuti kerja laa
• suka melawak
• orang yang bertanggungjawab menyediakan gaji setiap staf. kalau tak ada dia, alamat tak masuk laa gaji kitorang semua
• orang yang bertanggungjawab memperkenalkan saya dalam dunia akaun.

Then, Kak Ida.

Jawatan: Assistant Kak Lia

Position in the office: Duduk belakang Kak Lia.

Others:

• Orangnye cun. dah berpunye.hehehe
• suka makan ikan bakar
• dia pakai handset Nokia Express Music
• minat ST 12 dan Mizz Nina
• Rajin belanja orang cucur udang kat seberang jalan dari office waktu petang
• datang kerja naik skuter Modenas
• selalunya, orang paling awal sekali punch card masuk office pagi-pagi

Lepas tu, Abang Firdaus.

Jawatan: Technical Executive
Position in the office: Meja dia betul2 depan bilik boss. nasib laa

Others:

• orang yang paling rajin masuk office lewat bile boss outstation
• suke mengusik orang tengah buat kerja
• rajin main farmville dan cityville waktu office hour.
• pemurah belanja orang makan tengahari time poket tebal
• datang kerja naik Viva, takpun naik motor jer
• paling kamceng ngan En Salleh yang anginnya macam Taufan Katrina tu.

My colleague yang last sekali, Abang Faisal.

Jawatan: juga sebagai Technical Executive

Position in the office: Sebelah meja En Ramlee, kadang-kadang dalam bilik meeting

Others:

• die ni pun kalau bab mengacau orang, sama level je ngan abang Firdaus. suke buli orang
• rajin mengorbankan dirinya untuk curi-curi keluar office belikan kitorang makanan.seriously, kitorang memang kuat makan.haha
• pandai dan expert buat drawing Auto CAD. sebab tu dia suke duduk dalam bilik meeting. senang nk bentang kertas A3 yang besar tu.
• dia ni dah ade girlfriend tapi always sibuk nak tackle lagi
• terror main cityville. boleh laa kalau nak jadi perancang bandar dan wilayah someday.
• paling rileks dan cool even boss tengah kelam-kabut dan dalam mood ala-ala Gunung Krakatoa.
• his favourite quote; alaa, rileks laa..slow and steady jee..

Well, itulah colleague saya. Lepas ni, saya cerita pasal boss plak. Until then, mata dah kuyu ni. Esok kerja...

I'm writing this so I won't forget them and because  they are my first colleagues. Suasana bekerja memang 100% different from school. Life does goes on.

Feeling Guilt

I felt so bad when I intentionally said something bad about other people without I even thinking how harsh can it be! I never felt myself was so stupid for doing it to him. Honestly, it wasn't my intention and I really, really sorry about it. I've already said sorry to him but how do I know if he really forgives me? This feelings really ruining my mood. If I could turn back the time I would never said that again to him. To anyone! Ever! 

Too many if won't change a thing. Definitely..it's the reality. The words "if" make things worst to everyone actually. I promised myself to be extra cautious when it comes to boys. They could be really sensitive more than a woman. Seriously! ke..memang boys tu aje yg terlebih sensitif? Whatever it is, I will never forget how mad he is to me.



I finally learn that we could never pleased everyone....That's life, basically. But, at least we can try if it is the least we can do. From now on, I promised that I will try my best not to hurt anyone's feelings ever, ever again. I believe that it is still not too late for me to turn over a new leaf. The wise once said, better late than never. I wish that boy ever read this..I'm really sorry.