Ramadhan this Year: Something to Ponder for Me......

Assalamualaikum...

Well.., it has been almost 3 weeks the Muslims fasting during Ramadhan month. I've been really, really, really busy throughout this month this year. 

This year's Ramadhan makes me think a lot about myself. For the first time, I can count how many times I go to Terwaih after Isya' ! Back when I was in school's year, it's very hard for me to skip terawih. No matter how tired I am after the long hours of classes + extra classes..., I still manage to hold myself to do terawih together. 

But here, in CFS.., its been so difficult for me to perform terawih. I'm not making excuses to skip, in fact I've been trying really hard to find some time to do it. And I feel bad about it..:(

This year's Ramadhan also teach me how to be greatful and thankful because despite of tiredness, I feel that everything's worth it. Although I feel bad because I left my terawih, but I didn't leave it just because I'm tired. I've been struggling to finish all the assignments and paperwork. 

I also miss the value of having buka puasa with family and go to terawih together. This is the third year and I really miss my mama's bubur lambuk so much! She's the best cook ever for bubur lambuk! hahahaaha....

I remember all the moments when I was helping her baking the kuih raya and then, started to eat them as dessert after buka puasa! Makes it kuih puasa instead of kuih raya!

There's so much moments that I missed being here. Although I have friends here, it could never be the same being with the family. Ah yeah..., I didn't shopping raya with my family once again...It's rare shopping raya with friends instead with family. Suddenly, I feel that in the shopping mall, nobody went shopping with friends but with family (that is so not true, but I feel that way!) Me and Farah were going out to MidValley just to buy BigApple doughnuts for buka puasa! Mind me, just to buy doughnuts!!! Oh my Gosh!! hahahhaa....whatever, Farah.., i just accompanying you...hehehee...

Both of us felt awkward doing window shopping as everyone were like crazy buying this and that. It's SALE!SALE!SALE! Thinking of a pair of shoes in the Robinsons store at The Gardens right now! Its more than affordable for us to buy if we want, you know! It's just.., well.., we're too CHEAPSKATE spending our allowance. Everyone is HAPPY!!! huh!

Since there's only one week left and I almost completed all assignments, so I think I might have a chance to go terawih after this, InsyaAllah....

After all, the last 10 days of Ramadhan, we should be hunters to hunt the LailatulQadar which only came once in a year every Ramadhan....Subhanallah...

Till then, i gotta finished up everything before raya as after that, it's the revision week for us before the final semester examination...

What Has to Be Done

Assalamualaikum..

Its the second week of Ramadhan month. Wow..times flies..

And I'm still struggling with my assignments, classes, and the society. Pheeww...its the end of this week. 

Giving me more workloads...Yeah I know.., this is no longer high school and no more getting pampered by teachers and etc.  So, carry on with life as this is my choice and I should be greatful  as many others don't have the chance like me. Not that they don't have a chance to be pressured like me, but I gain a lot of things despite all the suffering to complete every tasks given. 

Being a pre-university student, is very, very a different world to high school's life. (aarrghh.., I said the same thing many times to myself. grow up, kiddo!) but still..., I always forget!! 

Anyway.., I had a chat in Facebook with a secondary school girl. I didn't really know her, actually. Perhaps just as a mutual friend. She appeared in my chatbox and asked me how to be a girl...HUH??? a girl asked me how to be a girl. I assume it as she wants to be more feminine. She is a tomboy a her school and always had a fight with the boys at school. Okay...I'm still listening to her as she tole me her problem. Finally, she said that she doesn't want to be like that anymore and wanted to be a real "girl". Right......

First of all.., I was thinking at that time. How am I going to advice her or at least help her out in finding ways how to solve her problem. The thing is...the way she take my words in a different way. I don't know..., she seems like taking everything in a negative perception. Hmmm....that's tough for me because I never been in a Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya before. Even though my friend always find me whenever they have problems. But in her case.., I think it would be much easier if I can communicate with her face to face rather than in a Facebook chat. So that I can really know what exactly bothering her. 

I also kept thinking myself that am I doing the right thing?? I know that I am not the best person for her to seek help as I also don't have any experience in her case. But, I've a lot of friends who are being a 'tomboy' and they seems to be fine. Probably because most of them are athletes. Hmm..make sense also....

But, I really want to help the girl. It's just I don't know how....

I didn't even have a time to ask the matter to someone who have more experience regarding this matter. 

Well, I guess that girl has to find her own initiative first..Sorry.....

As for me..., I had to find myself to scream out loud!!! As loud as I can..!! 

Till then, I am still battling with the time constraint to finish up everything before Hari Raya.

UPDATING MYSELF

Assalamualaikum...

Well, it's quite for sometimes since I didn't update in here. Well, I am too busy with the life as a student. 

It's 11 Ramadhan already. Times flies...

A lot of things had happened recently.

First of all, this is my very first time fasting in a campus life. So, yeah.., no one can even control me of what to eat, for such.., " oh you cannot eat that" "you should eat this" or even "alaa., makan je laa what is served in the hostel" back in hostel's life few years back..

But here.., I can eat or didn't at all if I wish too!! It all depends on me..huh..dah grown up la katakan.....

But still.., I did miss my mama's cooking..

Then, tonnes of assignments to be done and submitted within these Ramadhan weeks which is really, really makes my life pretty miserable, currently.... which then lead me to crap here..hehee

As for MeLEX, we are planning to do "Bubur Lawmbok"..hahaa..

It's kind of interesting actually. Well, if and only if I could grab my camera, then I'll post some pics in here Considering that this is my first experience to get involve in such events.

My parents just came and visit me last week. We go out together and shopping for baju raya (awal giler kan).

Had a great time with them since I really miss them a lot. (Mengada je, baru study kat dalam negara, belum oversea dah macam ni) ahahhaa..well.., anak mama & papa..

The first week of Ramadhan, I had an iftar with my uncle's familt in Taman Tun which is just a stone's throw away with the CFS, PJ here. I spent a good weekend helping my aunt who is currently pregnant her 9th children. wow....I know.....really salute..!!

Then, we go to Damansara, Chow Kit Road.....shopping, yeah..

End of the weekend, get back to CFS, back to the rat race.., back to the hectic life as a student..

Now.., can't wait for Raya..hehe:)